Right now, I could just scream! Since even before this whole missing callback situation I posted about I was nervous about all the car issues I was having and was just about due for phase 5 where I'd only have to dose once a week....well go figure thats why they scheduled my callback which I missed and was harshly punished, as u all know, by being sent back to phase 1.
The stress its caused now that I have to go daily and hoping my will keep running is unbearable! And now, my car starter is totally shot. so I feel screwed. If I didn't have to attend the damn clinic on a daily basis before work, I could possibly pay someone at work for a ride, but I can't now, I don't need them knowing I'm on MMT. I called about how much cabs would be, to there then to my work, $15 one way! Ugh!
I guess I am just writing to vent. At least u guys know what its like to go thru these kinds of things. It's just so frustrating, they act like its their number 1 priority to help u get life back on track and making healthy, positive life decisions and in reality, they have only been making it more difficult for me to have the life I've worked so hard to get back by restricting everything I do. I can see if I've ever given them reasons not to trust me but ive been a model patient up until that missed callback...which I still fault them and their lack of communicating such a huge change in their callback policy to me and every other patient.
Wish I could just accept my punishment and move on but it angers me too much to, and their poor decisions STILL have a way of biting me in the ass now. So, hopefully I can figure out a way to stay until I'm fully tapered. I'm down to 33mgs now. Fingers crossed.