Just checking in. Fell off the wagon for a few days since it was my birthday but I'm staying clean now. Don't feel bad or nothing. Do crave but I'm staying strong! I guess the Mayans were wrong since the world didn't end and we all are still here lol!
....... HOWS It going Bumthat. With all due respect, My Birthday was last Thursday, and I Stayed Clean,, I am really just Totaly Confused by what ever you got going on Bum., The last I heard was that you were saying that your Dad was going to provide for you some help, If you would be willing to stop taking anything. Then I read where you had gone several days off of everything, and for some strange reason, It would seem that you had gotten clean, and were not feeling any Withdrawels, , so you were good to go.After that you posted that you were not going to have the money you needed to pay for your methadone, so you had decided to score some Dope to get through the week-end so you could work., I really hahe problems trying to get my head around that one, that you you can hussle up some money to cop some dope, but never can do any thing to get your Methadone, I really dont know Bum, I dont mean this as a put down, but everthing you are saying from week to week,and Day, By Day sounds like nothing more to me but One Giant Mixed Message., With that being said What do you really want to do? At some point you are going to have to quit riding that fence, and make some choices reguarding your life, and weather or not you think its worth saving !!! If you do, You are going to have to quit playing musical chairs, and really get down to buissness. This is only my opinion, but At this Point, I dont think you are even near ready to take this on.You are still just playing around. I hope If the time does come and you are ready to Recover, Its not to late..Addiction reminds me of the times in my life when where ever I was living, had Rats getting in, and I had to bait, and put out those big swing bar traps. I would bait them with cheese, and the next morning when I would go to check on them somtimes the trap would still be set, but the cheese would be gone.,..Sometimes that Senearo would present it-self for several nights, Until one Morning I would go to check the Traps when I approached that stubborn one There laying accross the wooden platform of the trap with the traps swing bar Crushing the out of lucky chances rats head. That ordeal always reminded me of the Disease of Addiction. Every time a Addict takes the risk of shooting some Dope, He, Or She might get away with it a hundred times in a row, When The User shoots that Herion for the 101 Time Its to much, and the Addict OD's and Dye's, Just like the hungrey Rats near perfect Agenda, The Drug Addicts Constant Craving for Opiates is left with a near perfect record of drug abuse ,until that one Dredded Day that their Serial Killer in their Disease of Addiction, comes calling !!!,....Good Luck Bumthat, I Hope you will really look at the Reality your in, and choose to Surrender to the concept of recovery, and by doing so you can save your life., Its Time Bum, It really is time to either Shit, or get off the pot.,..Take