Any reason it HAS to be this particular treatment center? I can't remember the details (financial matters, etc), so if it had to do w/ability to pay or something, don't feel like I'm just ignoring your limitations - I do understand b/c I was there more than a few times (not able to pay for treatment, so my options were very limited...) But I'm just wondering - couldn't you just find a different treatment center that would be willing to do intake & would actually call you back like you matter to them, rather than treating you like it's no emergency that you get help as this one is doing? That used to REALLY piss me off (& still does - I just don't have to deal w/it anymore for myself) when treatment centers act like it doesn't bother them in the slightest that you have a super-huge dope problem you need immediate help with & you can't get in for another half a year or something. When I was awaiting a bed at my first detox center in MD, I asked them what should I do until I could get there b/c I was going to get sick. They told me "Keep doing what you've been doing up to this point." I was like "First of all, who says I can afford to keep doing that? And second, I am shooting 20 bags of heroin a day - you REALLY want to suggest to me that I continue doing THAT?" That was by FAR a matter of life or death, & they were just as flippant as if I'd called to ask them when they could groom my dog or something. My parents were extremely angry with them about it, I was, & beyond what I just mentioned, the other thing about it was that I stood the chance of getting arrested at ANY minute, buying 20 bags of dope a day, everyday. I didn't want to have that happen, so it angered me even more that they just told me to keep doing it. I know & understand that there may have been no TRUE good answer to my question when I asked them at that time, but come on! At least they could have suggested I go to my private doc & see if he could help me with any type of medication to ease w/d's or whatever else he might think of to do - b/c as we all know, some docs will help temporarily if you're awaiting a bed in treatment. At that time, though, I had no idea about that.
So anyway, give that some thought & maybe do some checking to see what's available to you before you just decide to skip out on treatment. I know it's tempting, mostly b/c you've now been away from dope to my knowledge for a few weeks & want to get back to living life. But opioid addiction has a way of sneaking up on you VERY quickly & quietly & before you even take 30 seconds to really think about what you're doing, you've already tossed down 3 Lortab 10's or Percs or done a shot of dope just b/c a friend said "Look what I've got!!" out of the blue one day. That happened to me right after I got out of prison & hadn't planned to use. I tossed back the 3 Vicodin HP's he showed me & the next day, I was out of town filling a fake prescription for a whole bottle of 40 more after having been clean for almost 2.5 years. That was all it took for me to be right back at it full-force after all that time. And within a matter of about 3 to 4 weeks (which is a long time for me usually when it comes to this), I was already back physically hooked & needing them to prevent w/d's, which meant filling fake scripts almost every single day. I ended up caught again before I'd been out of prison 4 whole months. I had to detox in jail all over again, which took me a month, as usual (b/c I had a doc that was trying to help me by giving me a tapering dose of methadone). I was only taking 20mg of methadone a day by then, & it hurt & caused as many problems for me as coming off 120mg/day 2 years ago. So my point is, & you already know, this whole thing is a real bitch to handle & can come up on you before you know what hit you if you aren't prepared. If there's ANY WAY to do so, take the time to do the treatment. It can't hurt, & it might just be the help you need to make it w/out MMT, as you're wanting to do. Just my advice. Best wishes.